I seriosuly cannot stand liars!
Hoesntly, I've been trying this whole new approach that not all guys are the same. but with guys like YOU thats not very easy! When you do stupid crap like this.. why would you expect me not to find out. Why do guys have to play mind tricks! I hope she finds out everything cause your a fcxkin man whore! Get over yourself.
I moved on with my life and it seems like once things were finally going the way that I wanted them too, great guy :), schools average friends ah-may-zing and just life over all was good. But obviously things can never ever work out the way that I want them. I can never have something good going on in my life without you having an input on it. Listen you do your thing and I'll do mine. Dont try to bullshit your way into my life. Trust i will find out. And for those of you who make me glow TY, cause hopefully you wont screw me over like the rest. And for those of you who like to talk my name STFU, please i'm not in the mood.
-Karma will be a bigger bitch than i could ever be, so best of luck mothafxcker!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Lets Get To It!
So I was watching the buried life earlier today and it inspired me to make a bucket list. Hopefully I'll be able to start crossing them off. Ones with an "X" have been completed.
Things I want to do before I die
1) Go sky diving
2) kiss trey songz & Christiano ronaldo
3) Dance with the jabbawockeez
4) know the true definition of love.
5) Travel the world
6) Slap Bush
7) Get married have kids the whole package.
8) Write for one of the best magazines (Teen Vogue, GQ)
9) Drive in Nascar
10)Tell my parents all of the lies and all the sneaky stuff I've ever done.
11)Get a job :|[X]
12)Start my web show *Anthony*
13)Attend the grammys,oscars,bet award show and basically every other award show
14)Get my tats ;)
15)Help someone in need [X]
16)Become an inspiration to someone [X]
17)Tell the whole world that Timbits are made from the hole in the donut!
18)Get a whole lotta followers on my blog!
19)To be in a close to perfect relationship and maybe even fall in love:|
20)Learn how to cook
21)Have a huge house! w/ everything imaginable inside
22)Meet a prostitue
23)Interview a brainer.
24)Figure out how the HELL they get the caramel into the caramilk bars.[X]
& I'm done for know, this will be something that I'll update on a regular basis.
Things I want to do before I die
1) Go sky diving
2) kiss trey songz & Christiano ronaldo
3) Dance with the jabbawockeez
4) know the true definition of love.
5) Travel the world
6) Slap Bush
7) Get married have kids the whole package.
8) Write for one of the best magazines (Teen Vogue, GQ)
9) Drive in Nascar
10)Tell my parents all of the lies and all the sneaky stuff I've ever done.
11)Get a job :|[X]
12)Start my web show *Anthony*
13)Attend the grammys,oscars,bet award show and basically every other award show
14)Get my tats ;)
15)Help someone in need [X]
16)Become an inspiration to someone [X]
17)Tell the whole world that Timbits are made from the hole in the donut!
18)Get a whole lotta followers on my blog!
19)To be in a close to perfect relationship and maybe even fall in love:|
20)Learn how to cook
21)Have a huge house! w/ everything imaginable inside
22)Meet a prostitue
23)Interview a brainer.
24)Figure out how the HELL they get the caramel into the caramilk bars.[X]
& I'm done for know, this will be something that I'll update on a regular basis.
Friday, January 29, 2010
L O V E
I love you- 8 letters, 3 words and 1 meaning. But what is that meaning? How do you know if your in love? People who fall in "love" to fast always end up getting hurt. so why bother with the love? why go thru all that pain for a little pleasure? what is the meaning of love? and why do we fall in love?
Love is a tricky thing, it can make or break a person. When you move from the stage of strongly liking eachother to a more serious one of loving eachother you take a huge step and when your in love, if you miss that step the person who your in love with should be there to catch you. why is that for some people after 1 month of a relationship there in love? How can you love someone that you've only been with for a month? Is love when you hug them and never want to let go, when you kiss and never want your lips to part is it when you can't sleep because they're on your mind. Is it when you wish you could stop time that way the moments you have together would never end. Or is love a big sham does love even exsit.
Theres evidence supporting both sides, if love exsits then why do people break up? why is the divorce rate so high. Why do people cheat? But if love doesn't exist then why are couples celebrating there 20th anniversarys?
Love I dont think i'll ever fully understand the concept, how many times can one person fall in love? and how do you know if your in love?
- confused :S
Love is a tricky thing, it can make or break a person. When you move from the stage of strongly liking eachother to a more serious one of loving eachother you take a huge step and when your in love, if you miss that step the person who your in love with should be there to catch you. why is that for some people after 1 month of a relationship there in love? How can you love someone that you've only been with for a month? Is love when you hug them and never want to let go, when you kiss and never want your lips to part is it when you can't sleep because they're on your mind. Is it when you wish you could stop time that way the moments you have together would never end. Or is love a big sham does love even exsit.
Theres evidence supporting both sides, if love exsits then why do people break up? why is the divorce rate so high. Why do people cheat? But if love doesn't exist then why are couples celebrating there 20th anniversarys?
Love I dont think i'll ever fully understand the concept, how many times can one person fall in love? and how do you know if your in love?
- confused :S
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Sleep?
Haven't blogged in a while, about time I came back. So I just came back from Ottawa, I was in ottawa for a play that was being "premired". Hitting that stage was nerve wracking, wow we had a dress rehearsal the same morning and it wasn't that bad. But then we went for lunch and when we came back.. Honestly I've never seen so many kids packed into a room before. White,black,asian every and anything was there.
My castmates and I drove to ottawa from brampton we checked into our hotel got setteled then went for dinner. After dinner we headed out to the mall which was just up the street. The mall was ah-may-zing but seeing as how we finsihed dinner at 8:00 got to the mall at 8:20. We had exactly 40mins to shop before the mall was closing. I picked up a few things then headed back to the hotel.
Back at the hotel, the girls room spent about half an hour doing sleeping arrangements...oddly enough I CHOOSE to sleep on a cot? Worst decision ever! I hopped in the shower which was almost impossible to figure out then changed into my jammies. My castmate that went after me couldnt figure out how the shower worked and ended up using a plastic cup! Once outta the shower my roomates and I had a mini fashion shoot in the washroom with a blow dryer.
We got bored of the bathroom and headed out into the hall. That's when the real fun began. We took tons of photo's and even called out the guys. *stay tuned for the photo's*
The next day it was a 6:00 start and we were up and at it. Rehearsal began at 8 and went till 11:30. We performed at 1:00 and in my personal opinion we did a great job. After the show we did a Q&A part and were asked very strange questions. The highlight of my day would be signing my first auto-graph it was INSANE.
Well that was my trip, i'm gunna get some sleep now .
TTYL , ohh yeah one note -- always pee before going on any long trip!
- Tired and Lazy.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Repeat
This song has been on repeat for the past couple of days now. If you check my itunes play count it's currently at 45. It's an old song , but it still holds so many memories. I listen to this song with one person in mind and how badly I messed up things up between us.
We were together for a LONG time, one of my longest relationships and because of my stupid actions it ended. It took time and we've both moved on but whenever I listen to this song I cant help but wonder what if ?! and everyone knows once you start wondering what if ? the questions are endless. I can honestly say that i ws in L O V E, and he was the one I was in love with and to think that all of it is done, never to be brought up again is kinda painful. I thoguht I was over him and that we were friends no feelings attached but that was a lie that I told myself to keep sane.
It's kinda ironic cause whenever we talk he tells me how he wants us to be together again and how no other girl is like me. But how can you tell me that and not mean it, how can you tell me that you want to be with me and that "were gunna get married someday" and still be talking to other girls. Still be hurting me in a continous pattern. How can you still love me and treat me the way you do?
So basically i've given up on you. We'll never again be, I may always love you no matter how far apart we are, but im done trying -- trying to build a tower without blocks. So this is the offical goodbye and there will be no hello. I pray & wish you the best in life but that's it.
" Ohh , aint nobody do me like you , see everything little thing you do hey baby say stays on my mind and i , i'm offically missing you "
We were together for a LONG time, one of my longest relationships and because of my stupid actions it ended. It took time and we've both moved on but whenever I listen to this song I cant help but wonder what if ?! and everyone knows once you start wondering what if ? the questions are endless. I can honestly say that i ws in L O V E, and he was the one I was in love with and to think that all of it is done, never to be brought up again is kinda painful. I thoguht I was over him and that we were friends no feelings attached but that was a lie that I told myself to keep sane.
It's kinda ironic cause whenever we talk he tells me how he wants us to be together again and how no other girl is like me. But how can you tell me that and not mean it, how can you tell me that you want to be with me and that "were gunna get married someday" and still be talking to other girls. Still be hurting me in a continous pattern. How can you still love me and treat me the way you do?
So basically i've given up on you. We'll never again be, I may always love you no matter how far apart we are, but im done trying -- trying to build a tower without blocks. So this is the offical goodbye and there will be no hello. I pray & wish you the best in life but that's it.
" Ohh , aint nobody do me like you , see everything little thing you do hey baby say stays on my mind and i , i'm offically missing you "
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Why do the things you do?
Why is it that recently girls have been degrading themselves ? Why is it that recently girls are fighting with girls ? Why is it that girls can't get along, why is it that girls are dressing like there striaght outta stitches or a skittles bag ?
Girls seriously , its not cute! and this is coming from a girl. It's kinda funny cause were the ones complaning that guys are jerks and that they only want one thing. If your giving off the impression that your a sleww than what do you expect . Why come to school with brightly coloured hair, basically no clothes and expect respect? The only thing that your saying to a guy is " i'm loose come break my heart".
And honestly all your doing by acting tough and fighting each other is giving people something to talk about & trust me it's not good. And this whole haters are my motivaters peice .. really ? by saying that your giving them satisfaction by saying stuff like that your showing them that clearly they're important enough for you to write something about them . Why fight eachother over a brush in the hall or a GUY! why are we getting mad at eachother cause YOUR man lied, cheated and was being deciteful to YOU. In that "mix up" where is the other girl deal with your MAN not her!!
coming from someone who honestly cares about you. DOnt let anybody bring you down or make you act a ceartin way cause in 10- 20 years they really wont matter
anyways thats all for now
- Stay REAL
Girls seriously , its not cute! and this is coming from a girl. It's kinda funny cause were the ones complaning that guys are jerks and that they only want one thing. If your giving off the impression that your a sleww than what do you expect . Why come to school with brightly coloured hair, basically no clothes and expect respect? The only thing that your saying to a guy is " i'm loose come break my heart".
And honestly all your doing by acting tough and fighting each other is giving people something to talk about & trust me it's not good. And this whole haters are my motivaters peice .. really ? by saying that your giving them satisfaction by saying stuff like that your showing them that clearly they're important enough for you to write something about them . Why fight eachother over a brush in the hall or a GUY! why are we getting mad at eachother cause YOUR man lied, cheated and was being deciteful to YOU. In that "mix up" where is the other girl deal with your MAN not her!!
coming from someone who honestly cares about you. DOnt let anybody bring you down or make you act a ceartin way cause in 10- 20 years they really wont matter
anyways thats all for now
- Stay REAL
Friday, January 22, 2010
About A Boy
He pisses me off , he drives me crazy, he plays stupid mind tricks but no matter what he does I'm always thinking about him. He calls me names, he drives me insane but I can't let him go. His name is Jordan.. and honestly I think i really do like him. Now I've been in relationships before and like all relationships they have there ups and downs. But this ones different were not even together and I've grown somewhat attached to him. He's he highlight of my day him and his clever smart ass remarks on something that I said. He doesnt do things like other guys do, he is actually trying to get to know me , know what I'm about -- my likes and dislikes.
The only thing is that he's kinda like my best friend, and he may not think so which is kinda pathetic if you think about it. And if anyhting were to "offically" happen between us, i wouldnt want it to end becuase it would ruin a perfectly good freindship. There are other factors as well but thats a whole another story. He's a good guy and deserves the best girl so the fact the he chose me is kinda ... speacial :$. Any ways, that was just something going on in my head decided to blog
p.s- I'm on the phone with him right now :)
*names have been changed for identity purposes*
- Read & weep
The only thing is that he's kinda like my best friend, and he may not think so which is kinda pathetic if you think about it. And if anyhting were to "offically" happen between us, i wouldnt want it to end becuase it would ruin a perfectly good freindship. There are other factors as well but thats a whole another story. He's a good guy and deserves the best girl so the fact the he chose me is kinda ... speacial :$. Any ways, that was just something going on in my head decided to blog
p.s- I'm on the phone with him right now :)
*names have been changed for identity purposes*
- Read & weep
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