Repeat

This song has been on repeat for the past couple of days now. If you check my itunes play count it's currently at 45. It's an old song , but it still holds so many memories. I listen to this song with one person in mind and how badly I messed up things up between us.

We were together for a LONG time, one of my longest relationships and because of my stupid actions it ended. It took time and we've both moved on but whenever I listen to this song I cant help but wonder what if ?! and everyone knows once you start wondering what if ? the questions are endless. I can honestly say that i ws in L O V E, and he was the one I was in love with and to think that all of it is done, never to be brought up again is kinda painful. I thoguht I was over him and that we were friends no feelings attached but that was a lie that I told myself to keep sane.

It's kinda ironic cause whenever we talk he tells me how he wants us to be together again and how no other girl is like me. But how can you tell me that and not mean it, how can you tell me that you want to be with me and that "were gunna get married someday" and still be talking to other girls. Still be hurting me in a continous pattern. How can you still love me and treat me the way you do?

So basically i've given up on you. We'll never again be, I may always love you no matter how far apart we are, but im done trying -- trying to build a tower without blocks. So this is the offical goodbye and there will be no hello. I pray & wish you the best in life but that's it.

" Ohh , aint nobody do me like you , see everything little thing you do hey baby say stays on my mind and i , i'm offically missing you "